Sartre

Even though I totally disagree with Sartre's existentialism (b/c I do NOT believe in free will- scientifically, philosophically, and I dare say even, biblically, or religiously- disproven)- I admired him a lot- love reading his stuff, and one part of what he wrote really struck me. He said that the reason he wrote was to have an intellectual relationship with himself. Even though he had Simone de Beauvoir, and others, around him who were intellectuals and just as intelligent...he still felt misunderstood and people just need to be understood- it's an animal-level need, but a need nonetheless. I've thought that myself- I write a journal- have for years- and most of the time it feels like I"m writing in it to have that intellectual relationship with myself, b/c I don't feel like there's anyone else to have it with. And it's not because I don't have smart friends, because God knows I do...it's just that I, like Sarte, have felt like an outsider looking in for most of my life.